i feel so...

i feel so mad...i feel so angry...i feel so careless..so lost confused again..i feel so cheap..so used, unfaithful...i wish i could start over...just start over..

i dont know if much of you know but...i...i mean..my qpi didnt reach. i failed. at that moment i found out after waiting in line for the adaa...time just stopped...i didnt know what to do..i didnt know what to say...i didnt know how to tell my parents..nor how i myself could handle it..i mean..just failing 1 subject made me a total wreck but failing ateneo?! jeez..

so..i stayed in my friend's house practically the whole day yesterday. didnt want to go home...i couldnt go home...how could i face my parents...

but...i survived. but...not on my own. if there's a lesson to be learned here..its that...as my friend told me..."no man is an island". i had help...constant support from my friends and family. this day was bad..i mean...i just looked matamlay according to my sis. at least she was keeping me company..i got so depressed i even watched..."What a girl wants"...dang..amanda bynes..is so..purty..well besides the point..

but..the thing i wanna show is that..no man is an island...and i am not a lone wolf...coz...as they say on those nature thingies...wolves always go as a pack...

(oooohhh..if i get an army team or something or a squad..i wanna call ourselves the wolfpack...wla lang) so there...

I'm A Goofy Goober Too...

"I'm a goofy goober, you're a goofy goober, we're all goofy goobers...goofy goofy goober goober yeah..."

Well...i just watched the Spongebob Squarepants movie yet again. you know what i just realized...it reminded me of another movie...not the same thing....but still have the same themes; "Battle Royale 2". basically..the 2 movies say how good it is to be a kid.

ever since i was small, i hated sleeping during the afternoons. i always wanted to do more things. i always wanted to be a "man".

however, nowadays i treasure the littler things in life. i look forward to coming home early from school so i can have a good afternoon's sleep. i relish the days when i dont have homework. i take time out of my busy schedules to stop and smell the flowers (not literally..dont know where i can find flowers to sniff...)

in battle royale 2, the survivor from the first film, nanahara shuya becomes a terrorist fighting against the government that had put them on that island with his class ordering them to kill eachother. when he finally reveals why he fights, he says "to protect the smiles on the kid's faces..." (dont know if its the correct line, but it pretty much sums it all up..)

"A war against all adults who have taken the smiles of kids away". that is what he has been saying.

going back to the Spongebob Squarepants movie, i realized that..it is good being a kid. sure, we all have to grow up someday but...i can wait haha.

in the words of plankton "his (pertaining to spongebob) chops are righteous". in the last scene (sorry for those who are reading this, yet have not watched the film...i am going to describe what had happened...but this is your final warning...if ever, bookmark this blog and close it...go out and watch the film and then come back here and read on...if not...oh well..your loss) spongebob gave a speech on how he was a kid. how much he knew that you dont need to be a man (or woman...if you're beeing feminist on me) what you need to get by is inside of you (cliche i know..but its true!).

and then he goes on to song...

"I'm a goofy goober (rock!)You're a goofy goober (rock!)We're all goofy goobers (rock!)Goofy goofy, goober goober (rock!)Put your toys awayWell, all I gotta sayWhen you tell me not to play, I say "No way!"No no no no no way"I'm a kid", you sayWhen you say I'm a kid, I say "say it again!" and then I say "Thanks""Thank you very much"So, if you're thinking that you'd like to be like meGo ahead and try, the kid inside will set you freeI'm a goofy goober (rock!)You're a goofy goober (rock!)We're all goofy goobers (rock!)Goofy goofy, goober goober (rock!)" (from http://www.poplyrics.net/waiguo/soundtrack/spongebobsquarepants/008.htm)

so...if you tell me not to play, i say no way...no no freaking way. and if you want to be like me, go ahead and try, the kid inside will indeed set you free...

coz...you know why? i'm a goofy goober...and so are you.