24...
well...lets just say...thats how long i was up last nyt and the previous night just because of a little show called 24. i watched the 1st season from 12mn...to 12mn...just like the timeline of the 1st season
and i watched the 2nd season...8 hours after the 1st season...(tulog eh) and started the 2nd season at 8am...like the show. i did this well...1st because my mom dared me to...(she regreted it now) 2nd i wanted to be emotionaly involved with the program.
there was one thing that the show had that caught my attention. it was mainly about family.
even behind the conspiracies and the terrorist attacks...the family is an evident thing. Senator Palmer(1st season) got a call. he was told that they had found evidence linking his son to a murder. the murder of the rapist of his daughter. 2nd family was of Special Agent Jack Bauer. his family was broken for quite some time but after a while they got together again...but their happiness wasnt there for long. his wife and daughter get kidnapped because of one of his black ops missions in belgrade.
one thing they both did and that made me think was to do anything and everything for their families.
that made me think. both of them were model fathers and model husbands. and..to be honest...will i be like them someday?...not necessarily heroes to their countries but heroes in their own families. willing to sacrifice everything they had just for them.
it got me thinking...what makes a good husband and father?...i'm not sure if i said something before but...ive wanted a kid for quite some time now. i dont know why but after seeing my uncle(10 years older than me...i think) with his daughter...and the way he shows much care and love for her(tricie) well...it got me thinking if i was even capable of a fraction of what he is doing. my dad...he's another story altogether. he was a deprived child. helearned everything he knows now on his own. he doesnt like his parents and he didnt want us to have the same life he had when he was young. i know he screams at me...even hits me sometimes but i know that he does it for me.
i dont know why people keep on makingmovies about superheroes like kapitan barbel...gagamboy...spiderman...daredevil and the such...maybe its because in a chaotic time like ours...we need heroes. and well...thats wrong...we shouldnt look to them for inspiration. you hear kids around saying "pag laki ko gusto ko magin parang si superman" or something like "i want to be just like spiderman"...they dont stop saying these stuff...but unkown to them...there are heroes with them everyday. their dads.
i know na pang fathers day to but...dont blame me..i still think its saturday
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Saturday, December 13, 2003
Higher...
World turns black and white
Pictures in an empty room
Your love starts fallin down
Better change your tune
Reach for the golden ring
Reach for the sky
Baby just spread your wings
Chorus:
We'll get higher and higher straight up we'll climb
We'll get higher and higher leave it all behind
Run, run, run, away
Like a train runnin off the track
The truth gets left behind
And falls between the cracks
Standing on broken dreams
But never losing sight
Spread your wings
Chorus
So baby dry your eyes, save all the tears you've cried
Ohh that's what dreams are made of
Oh baby we belong in a world that must be strong
Ohh that's what dreams are made of
Solo
Chorus
Higher and higher who knows what we'll find
And in the end on dreams we will depend
Cause thats what love is made of
- Van Halen, Dreams
Dreams. what are they? are they simple signals that the subconscious send to us in sleep?
Dreams. for me, well...they are what we hope for. dreams are what we believe in. dreams are what we hold on to, to stay in this life we call a game. dreams are what we try and achieve in life. however, once we achieve those dream, we apparently lose all hope. we have to dream. dreaming is what keeps us sane. dreaming is what keeps us alive and living every minute, every second to the max. dreaming is...life i guess.
we dream about love life, our future, basically anything. they are what we hold on to, those are some things that we strive to do. the things that we try our very best to achieve.
"So baby dry your eyes, save all the tears you've cried, Ohh that's what dreams are made of. Oh baby we belong in a world that must be strong, Ohh that's what dreams are made of" we all must be strong. we all have some dissapointments in life. some of them, like i said before we do not want to happen. but us, standing fast and keeping a stiff upper lip is what makes us dream more. we have to dream. dreams are what mold you, what you are today. dreams made the life you have now an exciting one. you seek for the right person. you seek for the right job. you dream the impossible dream.
but, dreaming the impossible dream is what makes you strive harder to achieve it. dream on! and..."Baby just spread your wings. We'll get higher and higher straight up we'll climb. We'll get higher and higher leave it all behind"
p.s.
oh i forgot...if you are reading this and have a couple of comments on this, or any of the previous posts...well...pls feel free to email me!...
engkantong_praning@hotmail.com
World turns black and white
Pictures in an empty room
Your love starts fallin down
Better change your tune
Reach for the golden ring
Reach for the sky
Baby just spread your wings
Chorus:
We'll get higher and higher straight up we'll climb
We'll get higher and higher leave it all behind
Run, run, run, away
Like a train runnin off the track
The truth gets left behind
And falls between the cracks
Standing on broken dreams
But never losing sight
Spread your wings
Chorus
So baby dry your eyes, save all the tears you've cried
Ohh that's what dreams are made of
Oh baby we belong in a world that must be strong
Ohh that's what dreams are made of
Solo
Chorus
Higher and higher who knows what we'll find
And in the end on dreams we will depend
Cause thats what love is made of
- Van Halen, Dreams
Dreams. what are they? are they simple signals that the subconscious send to us in sleep?
Dreams. for me, well...they are what we hope for. dreams are what we believe in. dreams are what we hold on to, to stay in this life we call a game. dreams are what we try and achieve in life. however, once we achieve those dream, we apparently lose all hope. we have to dream. dreaming is what keeps us sane. dreaming is what keeps us alive and living every minute, every second to the max. dreaming is...life i guess.
we dream about love life, our future, basically anything. they are what we hold on to, those are some things that we strive to do. the things that we try our very best to achieve.
"So baby dry your eyes, save all the tears you've cried, Ohh that's what dreams are made of. Oh baby we belong in a world that must be strong, Ohh that's what dreams are made of" we all must be strong. we all have some dissapointments in life. some of them, like i said before we do not want to happen. but us, standing fast and keeping a stiff upper lip is what makes us dream more. we have to dream. dreams are what mold you, what you are today. dreams made the life you have now an exciting one. you seek for the right person. you seek for the right job. you dream the impossible dream.
but, dreaming the impossible dream is what makes you strive harder to achieve it. dream on! and..."Baby just spread your wings. We'll get higher and higher straight up we'll climb. We'll get higher and higher leave it all behind"
p.s.
oh i forgot...if you are reading this and have a couple of comments on this, or any of the previous posts...well...pls feel free to email me!...
engkantong_praning@hotmail.com
Thursday, December 11, 2003
Life's a Game...
Cannot Stop The World...by Home Grown
Go on and tear this all apart.
Make sure to finish what you start.
Scratch the surface until it bleeds, then repeat.
Wear your tourniquet so thin that you will surely bleed again.
Tell me, what is it you've gained? Nothing.
Why can't you just move on?
And forget about the things that cannot be undone.
You can stop blaming yourself.
But you cannot stop the world.
Go on and throw your life away and don't admit that you feel pain.
Pretend everything is okay...is it worth it?
Don't try to take this by yourself.
There's nothing wrong with needing help.
The emptiness you feel inside heals with time.
Why can't you just move on?
And forget about the things that really don't belong.
You can stop blaming yourself.
'Cause you cannot stop the world.
It's not your fault that things went wrong.
Now the only thing that you can do is move on.
And the pain you feel will soon fade away.
Different things happen to us. most of them we cannot change. we cannot undo. we cannot stop the world. all we can do is hope for the best for everyday that passes.
sometimes, you think..."why is life so mean to me?" well, its not. it's mean to all of us, not only you. life is a game. some puzzles are harder than others. some progress through it faster than others. some...just get left behind...like some games, its a lot easier when you are with some one. a special someone that well, can make the day brighter. someone that can make you smile everytime you see them. a special someone whom you can care, and who cares about you.
the tricky part is...finding that special someone. he/she is a special character that you have to go out of your way to look for. but when you do find them, well...youd be thankful you did.
there will be boss fights. but mainly in life, the only boss you have to defeat are your doubts, your guilt, and mainly...yourself. you are your worst enemy. he knows all your weaknesses, he knows all you think, he knows everything about you. however...sometime, oyu will eventually be able to control yourself. you can and will defeat yourself one day...and when that happens...you can be everyhting you can be. you can reach your ultimate potential. however...your doubts, fears can regenerate after time. and you will have to fight them more than once your life. it will be hard, but dont worry...you have people who can and will be willing to help you out...
Cannot Stop The World...by Home Grown
Go on and tear this all apart.
Make sure to finish what you start.
Scratch the surface until it bleeds, then repeat.
Wear your tourniquet so thin that you will surely bleed again.
Tell me, what is it you've gained? Nothing.
Why can't you just move on?
And forget about the things that cannot be undone.
You can stop blaming yourself.
But you cannot stop the world.
Go on and throw your life away and don't admit that you feel pain.
Pretend everything is okay...is it worth it?
Don't try to take this by yourself.
There's nothing wrong with needing help.
The emptiness you feel inside heals with time.
Why can't you just move on?
And forget about the things that really don't belong.
You can stop blaming yourself.
'Cause you cannot stop the world.
It's not your fault that things went wrong.
Now the only thing that you can do is move on.
And the pain you feel will soon fade away.
Different things happen to us. most of them we cannot change. we cannot undo. we cannot stop the world. all we can do is hope for the best for everyday that passes.
sometimes, you think..."why is life so mean to me?" well, its not. it's mean to all of us, not only you. life is a game. some puzzles are harder than others. some progress through it faster than others. some...just get left behind...like some games, its a lot easier when you are with some one. a special someone that well, can make the day brighter. someone that can make you smile everytime you see them. a special someone whom you can care, and who cares about you.
the tricky part is...finding that special someone. he/she is a special character that you have to go out of your way to look for. but when you do find them, well...youd be thankful you did.
there will be boss fights. but mainly in life, the only boss you have to defeat are your doubts, your guilt, and mainly...yourself. you are your worst enemy. he knows all your weaknesses, he knows all you think, he knows everything about you. however...sometime, oyu will eventually be able to control yourself. you can and will defeat yourself one day...and when that happens...you can be everyhting you can be. you can reach your ultimate potential. however...your doubts, fears can regenerate after time. and you will have to fight them more than once your life. it will be hard, but dont worry...you have people who can and will be willing to help you out...
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
dang...
ive been sleeping quite sound the past few days. maybe thats why i havent been posting quite as much...well, back to business.
i dont understand women. (who guy does?) i thought that i did, but when you think you do, they do something that makes you think. and personally, god, she's been making me think. i am not going to name names...
at the beginning of the sem, she has been showing promise hahahaha she was like getting all friendly and stuff, and i thought to myself "yey!" but then all of a sudden she becomes all cold. i dont get it...
then, all of a sudden, ive been feeling pretty lonely. ive been trying to find company in the weirdest of places. well, recently, ive gotten pretty close to my dog.
my taste in music has been changing pretty drastically. like the past few nights, i have been listening to 70's rock. one particular song i have been listening to is "one is the lonliest number" by three dog night. i thought that it might suite my situation pretty well.
oh and another thing that has been bothering me...a lot of my female friends come to me for "love advice" and the funny thing is that i have never had a relationship my entire life. and if they can see me for who i am, well, why cant she?...
damn...i dont know what to think...well that's all for today...
ive been sleeping quite sound the past few days. maybe thats why i havent been posting quite as much...well, back to business.
i dont understand women. (who guy does?) i thought that i did, but when you think you do, they do something that makes you think. and personally, god, she's been making me think. i am not going to name names...
at the beginning of the sem, she has been showing promise hahahaha she was like getting all friendly and stuff, and i thought to myself "yey!" but then all of a sudden she becomes all cold. i dont get it...
then, all of a sudden, ive been feeling pretty lonely. ive been trying to find company in the weirdest of places. well, recently, ive gotten pretty close to my dog.
my taste in music has been changing pretty drastically. like the past few nights, i have been listening to 70's rock. one particular song i have been listening to is "one is the lonliest number" by three dog night. i thought that it might suite my situation pretty well.
oh and another thing that has been bothering me...a lot of my female friends come to me for "love advice" and the funny thing is that i have never had a relationship my entire life. and if they can see me for who i am, well, why cant she?...
damn...i dont know what to think...well that's all for today...
Monday, December 08, 2003
Alone…
It’s a pretty sad word. It’s a word that strikes fear in the hearts of many people. It brings depression and sorrow to the masses. It, well is evil.
I bet you have stayed up one night, wanting to talk to someone. You have always wanted to be with someone, just spend some time with someone. I bet you have been through nights where many things run through you head. Things you do not want to think about. And you want, as much as possible, not to think about it since…well…it hurts that’s why.
I bet you have experienced nights where you felt so alone. Nights where you try to re-evaluate who your friends really are, since well cause they seem not to be there for you that specific night. You like ask them if they want to talk and stuff but, well…they say things like, “I slept pretty late last night and I feel really sleepy…goodnight.” Or others like “I have lots of homework, sorry…”
It sucks. I know. I’ve been there before, well not once but lots of times. You sit there alone in your room, while listening to something like Blink 182’s “Feeling This” or well, if you are a bit mellower, something like Bruce Sringstien’s “Secret Garden”. Or if you’re like me and pretty much whacked, Air Supply’s “All Out of Love”.
However, while sitting there in your room alone, you know that there is someone who might want to talk and well, keep you company. It’s that name in your phonebook that well; you know might have nothing better to do. That someone that you haven’t spoken to for a while because of workload or you might have found someone more interesting to talk to.
You think twice before texting him/her. You try to think if it would be pretty awkward if all of a sudden you like come out, out of the blue and say…”hey, what’s up?”
Why does life do this? Make you feel like shit at times? Not knowing who to be with, feeling all lonely and stuff. And when you do, then you start doubting your friends. Well, I don’t think that that is a pretty nice thing to do since friendship is based on trust.
That’s all for today…
It’s a pretty sad word. It’s a word that strikes fear in the hearts of many people. It brings depression and sorrow to the masses. It, well is evil.
I bet you have stayed up one night, wanting to talk to someone. You have always wanted to be with someone, just spend some time with someone. I bet you have been through nights where many things run through you head. Things you do not want to think about. And you want, as much as possible, not to think about it since…well…it hurts that’s why.
I bet you have experienced nights where you felt so alone. Nights where you try to re-evaluate who your friends really are, since well cause they seem not to be there for you that specific night. You like ask them if they want to talk and stuff but, well…they say things like, “I slept pretty late last night and I feel really sleepy…goodnight.” Or others like “I have lots of homework, sorry…”
It sucks. I know. I’ve been there before, well not once but lots of times. You sit there alone in your room, while listening to something like Blink 182’s “Feeling This” or well, if you are a bit mellower, something like Bruce Sringstien’s “Secret Garden”. Or if you’re like me and pretty much whacked, Air Supply’s “All Out of Love”.
However, while sitting there in your room alone, you know that there is someone who might want to talk and well, keep you company. It’s that name in your phonebook that well; you know might have nothing better to do. That someone that you haven’t spoken to for a while because of workload or you might have found someone more interesting to talk to.
You think twice before texting him/her. You try to think if it would be pretty awkward if all of a sudden you like come out, out of the blue and say…”hey, what’s up?”
Why does life do this? Make you feel like shit at times? Not knowing who to be with, feeling all lonely and stuff. And when you do, then you start doubting your friends. Well, I don’t think that that is a pretty nice thing to do since friendship is based on trust.
That’s all for today…
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