Alone…
It’s a pretty sad word. It’s a word that strikes fear in the hearts of many people. It brings depression and sorrow to the masses. It, well is evil.

I bet you have stayed up one night, wanting to talk to someone. You have always wanted to be with someone, just spend some time with someone. I bet you have been through nights where many things run through you head. Things you do not want to think about. And you want, as much as possible, not to think about it since…well…it hurts that’s why.

I bet you have experienced nights where you felt so alone. Nights where you try to re-evaluate who your friends really are, since well cause they seem not to be there for you that specific night. You like ask them if they want to talk and stuff but, well…they say things like, “I slept pretty late last night and I feel really sleepy…goodnight.” Or others like “I have lots of homework, sorry…”

It sucks. I know. I’ve been there before, well not once but lots of times. You sit there alone in your room, while listening to something like Blink 182’s “Feeling This” or well, if you are a bit mellower, something like Bruce Sringstien’s “Secret Garden”. Or if you’re like me and pretty much whacked, Air Supply’s “All Out of Love”.

However, while sitting there in your room alone, you know that there is someone who might want to talk and well, keep you company. It’s that name in your phonebook that well; you know might have nothing better to do. That someone that you haven’t spoken to for a while because of workload or you might have found someone more interesting to talk to.

You think twice before texting him/her. You try to think if it would be pretty awkward if all of a sudden you like come out, out of the blue and say…”hey, what’s up?”

Why does life do this? Make you feel like shit at times? Not knowing who to be with, feeling all lonely and stuff. And when you do, then you start doubting your friends. Well, I don’t think that that is a pretty nice thing to do since friendship is based on trust.

That’s all for today…