Of Robot Love, Zombies & Gummi Bears...

Earlier this evening (Sunday, August 17, 2008), met up with a friend. It was supposed to be a dinner, but ended up something much more. It was a night of self discovery via a "birthday book", enlightenment, i-ching, saving the world from zombies and helping two robots fall in love, while devouring a lot of gummi bears.

To be honest, this is a post that I have no idea what to write about. Given usual circumstances, I'd be ranting or talking about a realization about something. However, tonight...I’ll be winging it.

I learned a lot of things tonight. Most of it happened during the first part of the evening. I was browsing through a “birthday personality” book. According to it, my life is like an eye of the storm, though calm and peaceful within, surrounding it is turmoil and chaos. Thinking about it, I realized that it could be true. Thinking back, a lot of things around me have been screwing up. Based on it, it says that my life is doomed to begin with. Whatever I would have built, whatever relationships I have…will all end in ruin. But you know what I think? Fuck that shit. I won’t let a book tell me how to live my life or who I am. I decide what I do and when I do it. I know who I am. I am me. (Confused yet? Don’t worry, you will be.)

Even if the book was right about me, being a lost cause and all…all I know is that I love fighting losing battles. If robots like EVE and WALL-E can fight their “Directive” and do what they know, what they feel is right for them, why can’t I? And all I know…is that if I set my mind to it, if I dare…I will win, just as how I finished House of the Dead 4 with my friend earlier tonight.

I should just trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap. And once I do, no one can ever pull me down.

So, this is what I want to ask of you. Are you ready to take your life into your own hands? Fight everything? What people tell you who you are, what people think of you? Will you take my hand, and fight for something you want. Will you take my hand, and finally believe…in who you are, in who you can be, who you will be? Thus, freeing yourself from the “False” you, and finally letting the “True” you out. Finally being able to live free, where they’ll never bring us down.