Identity Crisis…

I do not know who I am. I do not know what neither my weaknesses nor my strengths are. I do not know what my full potential is. I cannot trust my emotions at times since it has led me to bad situations in the past. I don’t know, maybe I could trust it at times.

I don’t know who I am. All I know for sure is what my friends tell me. I also know that I am not an open book. Here in my blog is the only place I actually put everything I feel. Sometimes, not even what I feel, but what I have learned. I put everything I have learned about myself here in this very blog. And I know that it still isn’t enough. There are still places in the deepest, darkest recesses of my mind that I dare not venture into because of the fear of what I may find.

What if in truth I have a demon waiting to be awakened inside me? I don’t know…who I am nor what I am capable of doing.

Someone asked me why I don’t open up…all I said in reply was…”How can I let people know who I am/what’s inside me, if I myself don’t know who I am/what’s inside me?”

What if I do have a dark side and when I let people in, I end up hurting them? I cannot risk that. I want to know who I really am. And I want to know all of it. Well, at least everyday I learn a little bit more about myself and hopefully in time…I would know enough…